Beyond Words

For over 15 years now, we’ve been spinning the Magna Karma wheel in my house. It’s become the guiding point for the day-offering reassurance or at the very least a chance to show some creative interpretation.

Profound insight was my son’s last spin before he set off on a journey, both literal and figurative. I am hoping this insight will mean wise decisions and safety in his travels.

My favorites are sexual magnetism and wit, but so often I find myself at cellulite, which I interpret to mean bumpy roads ahead.

Wouldn’t it be nice to have a daily guide, a glimpse at what’s to come for the day, the week, the year. I don’t think life is quite as random as a spin of the wheel. Though sandwiched right between fabulous wealth and guilt is “Destiny Unclear, Spin Again”, so maybe this karma wheel is dead on.

The challenge in life, in writing and in all things is to take what we’re given or what we’ve chosen and actively shape it. We can view hair loss as a sad and scary thing or look at it as the opportunity to do a little trimming. To reshape the look of things and come away lighter and shinier. It’s all in the interpretation.

It’s time for me to do some reinterpretation. The wheel lets me know that while my work is getting better and the income is increasing gradually…it’s not keeping pace with my current cost of living.  As a writer do I lower my rates to get more jobs? Jobs that are not about quality but speed and keyword insertion are prevalent right now, but do I want them? I’ve raised rates for current clients and was able to successfully do so and get more work from the same clients-a winning situation for me. That’s a moment of  Pleasant Surprise.  But, I fear that Angst is right around the corner.

Starting any new business venture is a challenge. It involves risk and hope, the occasional muddled thought and lots and lots of perseverance. Sure there are nights when you wake up in a cold sweat worrying about that next mortgage payment and there are days when a latte seems too extravagant. It takes time and patience and moments of profound insight. For now that means holding steady, but adding supplementary income on the side so I can work on what I really love without feeling pressured.

What’s next for me? Well, this morning’s spin of the Magna Karma wheel reveals an ambiguous answer- I’m on the line between hair loss and insufficient funds.  Hmmm. I’m tempted, as visitors to my kitchen often do, to respin until I find a more pleasing revelation. But, that would be cheating Madame Karma.